Back again

Back again blogging.

I don't know where to start.

I don't know what to say.

So maybe if I start rambling I will find what I want to blog about.

It is my fault that I gained the weight and I cannot blame anyone but myself. 

I can't work out what I did to lose the weight when I started at 160 kgs.... For the life of me I cannot work out how I did it.  Tracking I suppose?  But I am not really doing anything food wise that bad that is keeping me at this weight.

Sick of salads!!! So sick of salads

The past weekend we went on a walk each day and Saturday I painted the front and back fence and our land is 726 square metres with 3 sides of it with fence (so that is a big fence).  I was exhausted by the end of the weekend and felt really good and then I gained!!! OMG I gained 1.4 kgs... who gains weight when they worked hard and drank a lot of water and OMG nooooooo not retaining or having my monthly

The boys were really helpful and the youngest helped me out with no complaining.  12 years old and he was soooo great.

The 14 year old helped his Dad do the vege garden in the back yard but those 2 are so slow at anything that it will take a while before that is finished lol.

When hubby and I went for a walk on Sunday morning we made a deal that apart from Monday night when we are at Ceroc dancing that we will go for a walk. 

We didn't go to Ceroc tonight as Hubby back was really sore after lifting the wood etc all weekend.  That is ok as Monday is a free day so tomorrow night we will be going for our walk with Charlie (he is a cavoodle dog).  I found that when we got Charlie we went for walks a lot less I mean go figure how do you go for less walks when you get a dog.

I think in my head I was going for a walk for him and I didn't want to go anymore.  He tugs on the leash and stops all the time that I cannot get a rhythm going.  So on our walk we decided that one day a week straight after work we would go for a walk around the lake (4 km) so that we can have a walk that isn't stop start stop start the whole time.

Food... food is my problem.  Maybe I am not eating enough or the right foods.

Today was not as wonderful as it should have been with food.  The first thing was having just a pork sandwich (not a big one as hubby made it for me).  I should have had muesli and yoghurt..... Roll on shopping day.

Breakfast

• 2 wholemeal bread
• Pork (left over dinner)

Lunch

• Lettuce
• Pork
• Tomato
• Pumpkin seeds
• Pickled onions
• Carrot
• Asparagus
• Beetroot
• Sunflower seeds
• Slivered Almonds
• Caramelised Onion dressing (capful)

Dinner

• Seashell pasta
• Mince
• Tomato Based sauce
• Broccoli
• Peas

Snack

• 3 Prunes
• Water
• 1 Coffee

Feels great to be blogging again.

I am going to lose this weight

Now I need to think of goals in my next post.  Goals!!!  Without goals I cannot do this.  I just have to work out what those goals are.

How will I do this?

I hate being fat!

I know if I want to lose this weight then I have to get my head right.  I know why I have to lose weight and I know what I need to do to lose that weight but the doing is the hard thing.

In 2005 I went on a big mission to lose weight and I went from 160 kgs to 119 kgs but I have gained back up to 140 kgs

For the last 3 weeks I have been on the Biggest Loser with my work group and have gotten down to 136.5 kgs. 

I need to blog again because that is the reason I lost the weight.  I got blogging and met some great people and then some not so great people came along and it ruined it all for me. 

My mum found out she had diabetes and then they did all these tests to see if she had kidney problems or cancer and it just got me in to a deep depression that I gained weight right back up to 140 kgs. 

I have been yo-yoing between 136 kg and 140 kg for the last 2 years so at least I suppose I can maintain but I am not maintaining at the right weight.

So how am I going to sort this that is the problem.

I need to have goals but cannot seem to find what those goals will be apart from numbers on a scale.  I felt great at 119 kgs and I know that is still way to big but I felt better than I do right now